Apparitions of Self-Doubt

 These repetitions going off in my head

Trying to convince myself that society, as we know it, isn't dead

These rationalizations in my brain

Can’t explain away the hypocrisy and the pain,

When the few who happen to be insane

Where does destroying a country bring about a gain?

All the casualties that originate from the fast lane

Evil manifests in the chaos and strain,

Come to me now from the mist of the past

Making peace with what was never meant to last

Trying to outrun that long shadow cast

We’re setting sail for a stormy sea that’s too vast,

Andrea, you were but a victim from the very beginning

Full of hollow promises with your head spinning

You must have left Satan grinning

That didn’t stop you and I from sinning,

What comes of noble aspirations?

Of recollections and mental gyrations

Of anguish and distorted creations

The need for comforting sensations,

I’m there with you now

The apparitions of self-doubt somehow

All the injustice that’s allowed

And you wonder why I wear this scowl,

Perhaps none of this was ever meant to be

Simply a nightmare of consciousness at sea

God’s own personal anomaly

A materialized dream that never spawned tranquility,

You were a promiscuous little roadblock in the way

Too many dark emotions that stayed

Too often you allowed your demons out to play

And there was no room for me at the end of the day,

Life becomes a rainy street with t dead end

Made of too many fences that you need to mend

Hard to change those nagging trends

The arrows are flying around the next bend,

Some people overcome the battlefield

Some people are never on an even keel

Some people choose to lie and steal

While others are overwhelmed by what they feel.