At a Distance

It’s funny to think of being alone

So far from what used to be home

Haven’t felt like I’ve even grown

In the coldness of the night hearing moans,

The murmur of ghosts of the past

Telling me this wasn’t meant to last

As if some spell had been cast

My flag seems at half mast,

These days of doubt and pain

Where all reasoning has been slain

The evil ones care only about their gains

We’re held down by our own chains,

You always said that you’d be there

When it all came down only despair

To think of you acting like you really care

Bitten by the teeth of your affair,

I can’t quite say what the future brings

My consciousness hovering above the ceiling

I’m numbed by the government stealing

For the innocent there’s no appealing,

Comfortably numbed by the wine

Wondering if the stars will ever shine

For these mass graves we’ll build a shrine

I’m just trying to buy some time,

This three dimensional existence

Seems to strike back with such resistance

Oh the reflection of reminiscence

I’m living my life at a distance.