No Longer

Is this God’s Green Earth or the only blue planet in the universe?

Is life eternal or does it end on a one way ticket in a hearse?

Is it just the depression you feel or could it get worse?

Is love really what you need or is just a mental thirst?

Often I ponder these questions with no suggestions

Confusion instead becomes this hollow companion

As if shadow could substitute illumination

As if love these days can ever overcome frustration,

As if taking off for a cruise on the ship of the damned

I ventured into the forbidden territory of love with a video cam

I could have been beauty but instead it was No Man’s Land

Marriage became no more than Custer’s Last Stand,

The answers I’ve sought in life only spawned more mystery

As I listened to your accounts of your jaded history

Your deepest darkest reasons not to be free

Those damning ways prevented us from loving joyfully,

Am I just a descended primate thinking philosophically?

Or just a servant of the architect of infinity?

A student of the unknown stretching into antiquity

Seems I’ve been exiled from divinity!

Remembering your singing voice as we wrestled on the sheets

This is where pleasure and emotional risk meet

You weren’t someone I picked up off the street

I was never the lion who pounced on easy meat.

I took a bite of reality and drank despair

Under the mistaken impression that you would care

It’s okay Baby I’m not sitting next to your chair

No longer the man running his hands through your hair.