Stumbling in the Dark

How will you choose to influence my life?
Rogue waves and giant hail that hits like knives
Pandemics that threaten your very time on earth
Let's conveniently terminate virgin birth,

Let's invent a brand new plague for today
Aircraft on a collision course yell "May day May Day!"
it's okay Baby you can say what you want to say
Make my future simply shrink away,

I used to believe love was here to stay
But reality makes you pay and pay
Perhaps we will recover some day
Now that reality just turns to gray,

My little runaway my little serving tray
Does it even matter anymore what I say?
It doesn't seem to matter how much I pray
Would you actually care anyway?

There was a time that I actually believed
At times I felt as though I was bereaved
All of those children I raised improperly conceived?
Please don't don't judge me by what I achieved,

I'm a clown weighing sanity by the pound
Stumbling in the dark feeling around
Less of a threat than that weeping sound
Of abandoned lovers yet to be crowned,

Bended knee upon hallowed ground
We took the beaches wherever we found
A reason to visit the burial mound
A blood scent for the hunting hound,

Like twin stars revolving but never to touch
Attracted but sacrificing this much
Unable to overcome the need for a crutch
Tragedy sadly this common as such,

Unable to see the forest for the trees
Easy enough to be brought to my knees
Love just like an opium tease
Take away this broken heart please.