IN recognition of all those who contemplate this choice, remember Firestone has great ears and they bend very well. Talk to me. I am here. I dedicate this song to you. Listen to it then send me a message, on your thoughts about this post.

  Personally I do not like this at all. I am not putting this post up to depress anyone. I'm posting it in recognition to reality and the choices that so many people make. I am posting it because many deaths may not be as mysterious as we may think. The thought of self defense, buying a gun, ammunition in order to protect you and yours because at any given second that may very well be the situation you are faced with. BE READY! Do we strap a gun to our hip, carry it around in our boot, hide it someplace safe on our bodies until the time comes? How many will get the chance to aim and pull the trigger, if their weapon is not in reach, not in the right place at the right time and if they do, die anyway? Personally I have had to face some pretty dire situations in my life, and I really do not want to go there, and I have never once contemplated killing myself.

     However now I've reached a point and really tried to put myself in someone else's shoes and thought that suicide could possibly save someone, when they felt that the choices at hand were worse then dying because they didn't have a choice or their lives sucked. We are all aware that many are faced with heartache and challenges, and the thought they have absolutely nothing to live for is the way to go. And I wondered would suicide relieve me personally of the misery and despair that sometimes grip me, and challenges my own will and perseverance, determination and spirit to LIVE ON! I guess I'll cross that bridge if I have to cross it. For now suicide is not an option.

     But for many it is a choice, the answer. I thought about the state of the world today and usually when I hear something about suicide it has been about a teenager going through a hard time. Someone jumped off the golden gate bridge because they could not find a job. Life is just to hard. That person was mental anyway and never felt a thing. A woman took her life and her children's because she did not have the money to provide food for her family. Then I got to looking around and wow I was surprised at how many people in the military, well actually not quite surprised but overwhelmed with the suicide notes left behind stating that I am not depressed, I am not mental, I just do not want to live anymore being controlled and ruled by corruption.

     There are quotes all over the place they simply state, I would rather die, then loose my freedom. I do not want to live like this. People happy with themselves, just unhappy with life and what it's coming to.

     I thought about sitting in my home working busy on a new art piece. My man at his desk involved in his law classes, and trying to balance out the bills. My girls across the planet doing their own thing and my boy right here beside me telling me how much he likes the fried chicken on his dinner plate and how he can't wait to get done eating it so he can have the home made ice cream awaiting him in the freezer. Suddenly a pounding hits, the door and swings open knocking the hell out of the opposing wall, and without any for-seen premonition or warning a mob of men in black with gas mask barge in and invade our privacy. The reason is not important, because I know we have done nothing wrong. Underneath my living room couch is a loaded machine gun, and in the closet in our bedroom is another one and before I can reach for it I'm dead. No choice. Nothing. All of us gone. Not one single hello. Three goodbyes. And this is the way it could be. And so the term suicide, to take your own life for the first time in my life slapped me in the face from a perspective I never even was aware of, til now.

     And I would ask for forgiveness and compassion in choosing this personal way out. And I wondered if there is a God, would he understand, and would he praise my choice? Or would I be confined to the fires of hell anyway despite the circumstances. Damned if you do, damned if you don't. Despite the love involved and the choice, integrity and dignity to call my own shots from the other side of the street, I'm happy staying on this side. I'm to much a coward to kill myself , my less my children. Self defense is reason enough. The tragedy's that face us today make me wonder how many people are actually really seriously choosing to opt out, their way. 

     I used to judge and I used to think what a chicken -shit easy way to go. But honestly I imagine it's not that easy for many because attempted suicides reign true. And many live on knowing they have tried it before. Killing your self has been on the rise for the last 45 years. I tried to find current statistics and the news was so distressing I could not bare to delve into this matter anymore. Anyway, it's a sad, sad thing when we hear someone has chosen to take their lives, and yet I'm not sure about that anymore. I wonder how many are really happy with that choice, and feel it is absolutely the best choice they have ever made. One of those things you just never know.

SUICIDE A Cop Out- A relieve- A Solution to choose for yourself when you know your gonna die. http;//www.onlinedictionary.com

Suicide is complex with psychological, social, biological, cultural and environmental factors involved.
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Quotes:
"He was so troubled with the government he chose to jump to his death'" Jo Ann Nobles on her husband- I grew up with this woman and knew her husband well.

"Then the ark started moving,' and it drifted with the tide,
and the Unicorns looked up from the rock and cried.
And the water came up and sort of floated them away--
that's why you've never seen a Unicorn to this day.'
Shel Silverstein

“Every person shall have the right to die with dignity; this right shall include the right to choose the time of one’s death and to receive medical and pharmaceutical assistance to die painlessly. No physician, nurse or pharmacist shall be held criminally or civilly liable for assisting a person in the free exercise of this right.” Kevorkian-deceased

Within the next half century, perhaps much sooner, the right to choose to die with dignity will be as widely recognized as the right to free speech or to exercise one’s religion. And yet those rights are being violated as I write this post. The reasons to choose suicide over living are endless.