I Loved an Illusion

You were a cloud of beautiful vapor feeding my fantasies

Gripping my flesh like a ghost bringing me to my knees

An exciting of my senses that did not come freely

Letting myself self-go until I stepped back and asked, “Really?”

As though a phantom had kissed me in thin air

Momentarily rescuing me from despair

I was in love with no one without a care

Only my imagination was actually there,

Talking to myself in the thick of the night

Reassuring my brain that everything was alright

Without a lover within plain sight

There was only a ghost to hold me tight,

Thrilling me like the smoke from a cannabis pipe

Only later to taste the tears I had to wipe

For a while I thought your illusion was just my type

The very deception for which I was ripe,

The girl of my dreams an apparition

All about losing my senses and inhibitions

Stolen from me with evil precision

Against all odds my foolish decision,

How cruel life is as we walk alone

An empty bed is not a king’s throne

The absence of a lover’s moan

Eventually the heart turns to stone.