Just a Clown

Living too close to my fears
Oh the tears oh the tears
Oh how they drag me down
After all I feel like I'm just a clown,

The days fade into to night
But my love's no where in sight
So then I try with all my might
A life absent of delight,

Alone against my will
No I won't take those pills
I can handle feeling the pain
Standing out in the rain,

They put Jesus upon a cross
The fools thought it was no loss
Marriage today is just a coin toss
Just like the grave stones that grow moss,

Although I'm alive on this day
Remember begging her to stay
Breaking hearts was just her way
It's a deadly game to play,

Living too close to my fears
Oh the tears oh the tears
Oh how they drag me down
After all I feel like I'm just a clown,

Remembering when my heart took a leap
Memories I thought forever I'd keep
But what you sow you will reap
Falling from your mountain way too steep,

Shot down like a pilot in a war
There's just no girl living next door
Appears there's no one minding the store
That cold winter wind continues to roar,

And the truth of it all
Is that we're all headed for the fall
Where is love I just don't recall
Every little girl loves her doll,

Living too close to my fears
Oh the tears oh the tears
Oh how they drag me down
After all I feel like I'm just a clown.