Too Overwhelmed

Too long I’ve been adrift on a forbidden sea

Too much time to wasted speculatively

Obsessing over pain and what could be

Today that realization just stung me,

For have I lived a different life before?

Why do I feel joy no more?

Why am I being drawn to the rocks ashore?

Unprepared for what life has in store?

From thirty thousand feet down to the floor

Have I ever been here before?

Struggling to open perception’s door

Love and heartbreak, what was it all for?

Sometimes I don’t even feel part of the human race

Studying these tired lines upon my face

I must have fallen far from heaven’s grace

Like the love I lost without a trace,

Caught out here in an adverse atmosphere

Too overwhelmed to even shed a tear

Held back from recovery with fear

Where is there an airplane I can steer?

Never let love leave such a void

That it’s forever captured on celluloid

Never allow the loss to make you paranoid

Love is an illusion like a trapezoid,

The more I try to solve this quandary

I feel the walls closing in on me

Time will consume than Wnich sets you free

Despite the broken hearted lover’s pleas,

An obsession with things of the air

A momentary escape from nightmares

It all ended with her affair

Lord, could I have at least have been spared?