Would it Have Been Different?

That's just the way I feel today
All great moments destined to fade away
Those you love will always run away
Those plans that failed to your dismay,

That's just the way I feel today
Your loyalty will go astray
Those that you need will likely never stay
Where is loyalty today?

That's just the way I feel today
Castles made of sand dissolve away
The love you promised is an illusion anyway
Who knows when it will be time for us to pay,

That's just the way that I feel today
Oh God how many times did I pray?
Just to watch my sand castles wash away
How long can I hold these feelings at bay?

That's just the way that I feel today
Can you really trust anyone these days?
Just when you thought you knew her ways
You just realized life's just a one act play,

That's just the way that I feel today
The ones you love will always run away
We always end up in the middle of the fray
Thought that you promised you would always stay,

That's just why I feel that way today
Seems like everything just turns out that way
With colors of blue red and gray
The tears that have fallen before I can ever say,

That's just the way I feel today
Looks like heavy rain clouds aren't so far away
Nothing but weeds left from where we used to lay
Should never have listened to all those things you used to say,

That's just the way that I feel today
No one ever listens anymore these days
All those times to God that I tearfully prayed
The terrible price I never knew I'd have to pay,

That's just the way that I feel today
I never could trust you anyway
Despite all those promises that you made
Would it have all been different had I never prayed?