Hi everyone,

I thought I'd write an update blog since I haven't posted in a while, and I seemed to have quite a little following I wouldn't want to disappoint :) Anyway, I'm still avoiding the "rabbit hole". It's getting easier. At first it was torture not checking WRH and Lew Rockwell every day, but it got easier over time. The depression I was in seems to have lifted for the most part (I even quit smoking!). I've just had to accept that this world has a huge dark side, and is run by…

I'm pissed off because assholes rule the world

I'm pissed off because more of my taxes go to Israel than my own community

I'm pissed off because I can no longer watch or listen to the news without getting even more pissed off

I'm pissed off because I stuck my nose into the truth and it scarred me

I'm pissed off because music, movies, and art are so profit driven that almost everything new sucks

I'm pissed off because it seems like 99% of the general…

I don't like talking to other people about my problems or feeling anymore. I guess that part of me has been beaten into submission at this point. So why not write it out? I don't know anyone from this place in person and frankly could give a shit less what someone I don't know thinks about me.

It's just the same dumb shit you hear all the time, life isn't turning out how I'd hoped. My parents pretty much left me to raise myself. Never heard them talk about college or doing good in…

I believe in ghosts. I saw them frequently when I was a kid, but as I've gotten older, it's been a rarer and rarer occurrence. I eventually got to a point where I chalked most paranormal experiences with over active imaginations and the dark inner workings of the human mind. Sure, I still "experience" stuff pretty regularly, but mainly in that half-dream state, where you're not sure if it was real or imagined. So, in order to keep from getting the creeps, I just dismiss the stuff as much as…