I'm so tired of waiting, preparing, talking to people, not talking to people, peiople not listening to me. I just want to live long enough to be vindicative of the collapse at this point. WHEN it happens I can hardly doubt anyone will give me credit for being right and nor would I gloat the same like gloating of someone who had gotten cancer that you told would get it if they kept smoking.
I stopped talking to people about preparing as time has grown nearer in my oppinion because I don't want any of those people to come looking for me when already have too many people around me not prepared that I can't escape.
I gave up everything on this when the first social infowars site came to be on line and started getting interested in getting Ron Paul elected for president.
I had sat and watched video after video after video and read everything I could about the New World Order and then overnight...poof, no more Keisha lol.
Its like being a band teacher in elementry school where you haf to teach everyone a instrument but you yourself haf to learn ALL the instruments.
I changed my college major over this what has turned out to be a very good thing actually so good job me not going into Credit and Finance and focusing on Nursing. It has been very hard but now I can treat gunshot wounds lol. I remember when I hated guns now I just pretend to hate them.
I maxed out 6,000 dollar credit card on silver thinking this was it when silver hit 12 a ounce a couple years ago but settled for 60 percent of the debt so in my mind that worked out although i kind of ripped off the bank so like i said that worked out lol, what else...hmm would like to have had my own family but little sisters keep getting pregnant so I can live vicarious through them at least. at one point i threw caution into the wind about gaining weight thinking the collapse was near so that was suky for a while. anyway, on and on.
I tried every idea then tried every idea again about prepping as i realized no idea was completely realistic or a cure all (my room full of toilet paper idea not very good), and now I have is the idea that I might have the satisfaction of knowing I was right about there being a real bad economic meltdown all along.
It's cool thogh, Id rather be right and stand alone then wrong and with the group.
Anyway...keepin the faith,