Never Sure

Never Sure

I’m just a man but it seems I’m unclean

I’m drifting through life unseen

In search of my own personal Ice Queen

The special one who can freeze all my dreams,

I’ll stick to my post that’s where I’m wanted most

By my frigid Ice Queen

She’s the one that decides if she’ll give this man a ride

She’s my very own Ice Queen,

Life will go along with me wondering what’s wrong

With my self-righteous Ice Queen

She’ll snatch the joy from the day in her own way

That’s my controlling Ice Queen,

There’s no sanctuary here seems a bit queer

With my domineering Ice Queen

Can’t love like she should would she if she could?

She’s my very special Ice Queen,

Doesn’t trust anyone she’s always under the gun

Just my flirtatious Ice Queen

The flirts aren’t for me she wished she was free

Still she knows she’s my Ice Queen,

Put a feather in your cap if her anger doesn’t snap

She’s my eternal Ice Queen

Few moments are ever tender don’t defend her

She’s the one and only Ice Queen,

Once she told me I could lean before she got really mean

Forever my Ice Queen

Love was intended to endure but with her never sure

She’s my enigmatic Ice Queen.

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Comment by Doc Vega on December 9, 2019 at 9:38am: James Roberts, as usual your insights are compelling. I would like to go on record saying that I know well what kind of pain and lasting effect your doomed relationship had on you, your sense of self esteem, the pain that was unmistakable, and how hard it was to get back in the saddle again. That was tough Pal. Look up, narcissistic women as the root cause of many of these female relationship assassins who specialize in using men and dropping them like feces between their legs on a wilderness hike! Yes, men do this to women as well but for us that don't it seems we get the exact opposite level of appreciation from our mentally deficient spouses and girl friends. This something politics and faulty assumptions about women being the victim the majority of the time really suppresses the exposure of. Thanks for your comment!

Comment by James Roberts on December 7, 2019 at 12:59pm: You know what really bugs the siht out of me as to the subject of obsessive relationships? There are a couple of checklists made by people who sent decades doing serious research, interviewing people, etc. The subject of the checklists concerns what those who have underwent "alien abduction" experiences have in common. Number one on both of them is an obsessive romantic relationship, in which the emotion doesn't seem organic, and which one just can not get over, no matter what logic and reason scream in your face.

I swear to God, when the primary relationship in my life thus far went off the rails and ended, the only thing I can compare the pain to is when a surgeon made the decision to allow me to wake up from a major emergency abdominal surgery, with absolutely no painkiller, and lie there for four hours (I couldn't scream or get up because of certain other circumstances). That pain continued for over a decade.

I used to think the subjects of aliens and UFOs were kind of cool and interesting, until I started reading up on and listening to what people who interacted closely with these things (who knows what is really happening) said the traumatic consequences in their lives were.